That patient I wrote about in the previous post...her husband got banned from the hospital because he was taking her pain meds & shooting them up in his arm. Nice.
Seems like we are seeing more & more of those type patients since they cracked down on the "pain clinics." So many drug addicts...and it isn't just being addicted to the meds. They are shooting them up, snorting them, taking wayyyy too many of them. I really don't know how they are not overdosing. It's sad, but we aren't a rehab. And I'm not saying all of them, but a large majority come in with that selfish attitude & act like we owe them something! They have attitudes & they aren't pleasant ones.
I'm not one to judge & hold back on meds. As long as they are ordered & their vital signs are stable & they are alert & oriented...I'll give what is ordered. I've always told my new nurses...this isn't intervention. Just give what is ordered & shake off the attitudes the patients give you. It isn't personal. They value a drug more than life itself & we aren't going to change that in the 12 hours that they are in our care. Besides, they aren't here for help...they are here because they can't afford the drugs on the street & in the hospital they are free.
Needless to say, I've had a very light schedule for summer. Two shifts a week & relaxing the rest of the time. I was getting close to the feeling of being burnt out...so I took a break. I refuse to allow work to stress me out. It isn't worth it. The only things that matter to me are health, family & friends. Life is too short to take everything else too seriously.
This is the first year that I've noticed what a negative work place that being a bedside nurse really is. I mean we take care of sick people. They are stressed & venting to us in order to feel a little better. We are taking care of people who may not necessarily truly be sick physically, but mentally they are very sick & again...attempt to drain us mentally. I see people would rather drag us down to their level than to break free from the stress & make changes in order to be happy. I don't know why it took me so many years to see how draining a bedside nurse's job really is.
I still love my patients (well, most of them). I love the hours. I love that when I walk out the door at the end of a shift, all the stress stays in those doors. I refuse to take it home. Although there are times where I feel it creeping in (perhaps more hormone related) & I immediately address it. I am not going to let stress get me. I don't thrive off stress or drama.
Looks like I just destressed here...lol. Whatever it takes.