Friday, April 22, 2005

I am a nurse.

My last night with a preceptor went well.  I pretty much handled everything on my own, but I think I'll always have a few questions to ask here & there.  It was my first night having 5 patients.  They were all ladies - very nice ladies.  My first one was in with an allergic reaction.  She's 49 yrs old, was in a motorcycle accident last year that pretty much destroyed her left foot.  She was on antibiotics to control the infection & even though she had been taking the antibiotics for over 6 months, she somehow developed an allergic reaction to one of them.  The thing is - they don't know which antibiotic is causing the reaction.  So they have taken her off all antibiotics for a few days & will restart her on them one at a time to try to figure out what is causing the reaction.  She has to have antibiotics in order to fight off the infection, so they need to figure out what will work for her.  I felt bad for her, she was itching all the time.  She had a red rash all over as well as a prickly type rash where you could see the red raised bumps.  She did a show & tell with the x-rays of her left ankle & leg.  It's unfortunate, she'll probably never be able to bear any weight on that leg because it was so mangled in the motorcyle accident. 

My next patient was a new admit, an older woman (in her late 80's) that came in with difficulty breathing.  She was exhausted from being in the emergency room for so long, she just wanted something to eat & to get to bed.  She had a really bad cough, one of those where you cough so much it actually hurts your body.  I showed her how to use a pillow to splint while coughing.  She said it helped a little. 

My third patient was another older woman.  At the moment I can't even remember why she was there.  Aacckk, I'm losing my short-term memory!  Oh wait, she came in because of syncope (dizziness).  She has muscle spasms that travel from one leg, then across her back & down the other leg & she loses her ability to stand.  Her & my first patient were fixated on having a bowel movement - funny how people in the hospital are so focused on that.  Gave her a little prune juice & she slept pretty quietly through the night.

My fourth patient came in with a nosebleed that would not stop along with pneumonia & a COPD exacerbation.  The bleeding had finally stopped the day before, but now instead of coming out her nose, it was going into her intestinal track & she had a consult with the GI doctor today.  She kept asking me for a back massage - as if I was a massage therapist.  Needless to say, that didn't happen.  I didn't have the time to devote to giving massages.

My fifth & final patient was a woman on reverse isolation.  Her WBC count was 0.5 - that is very, very low.  She also was very pruritic (medical term for itchy...lol).  They didn't know what was causing her to be having that reaction, but luckily the medication we switched her to finally kicked in after a couple of hours (Atarax).  After being in her room & my first patient's room - I was suddenly starting to feel itchy after watching them scratching all over - weird how that happens, isn't it?  Although I think my itchiness is from changing both my laundry detergent & fabric softener.  Thing is, I'm not sure which is causing the reaction.  I guess I'll throw them both out & just go back to my usual. 

Anyways, another uneventful night.  Uneventful - I like that word.  It sounds so meaningful & descriptive, doesn't it?  Basically it means the night went well & there were no crazy episodes that had me running around not sure of what I was doing.  My preceptor filled out my final evaluation form & my check-off skills pages (so to speak).  And that is it.  The past 10-12 weeks have flown by.  Amazing how much I've learned & how much confidence has been built up.  I'm no longer a student nurse, no longer a grad nurse, no longer an orientee.  I am finally on my own.  I am a nurse. 

Thursday, April 21, 2005

This is it!

Tonight will be my last night with a preceptor!   We had a department meeting last night.  Afterwards one of the clinical leaders asked me if I thought I was ready to be on my own.  I do feel ready, for the most part anyways.  I know I'll encounter situations in the future that I haven't dealt with yet & that makes me a little nervous, however, the only way to deal with it is to experience it first hand, right? 

One nice thing about this hospital, we get to set our own schedules.  So I'll be working Sun, Mon & Tues for the next 2 months.  I like it because I still have my weekends free for the most part.  Gina pretty much has the same schedule.  I wonder if they'll split us up (our dept is on 2 floors).  I hope not, it would be nice to help each other out if we need help. 

Work went well over the weekend - pretty much uneventful with my patients.  When I arrived at work Sunday night, there were 2 patients on the floor that needed to have a thorocentesis.  I observed the first one & then assisted in the second one.  It was interesting.  The doctor was polite, welcomed me to the hospital & explained what he was doing step-by-step.  My patients on Monday were pretty easy to care for.  I had one that was confused & had to have wrist restraints on so she wouldn't pull out her IV or try to get out of bed.  She even tried to bite me!  It was like dealing with a toddler.  So strange how some people do revert back to being a child as they age.  One of my other patients asked why I was checking on her so often.  I said I just wanted to make sure she was ok (I had the time to check on them).  She replied "The other nurses I've had hardly ever came into the room."  How sad!  I felt like a mama bear checking on her cubs...lol. 

My friend Julie's grandmother passed away yesterday morning.  I'll always remember her saying to me years ago "Who are you keeping company with?"  My thoughts & prayers are with you Julie!!!

Ok, time for me to get some sun.  It's another beautiful day here in Florida & I've already slept for nearly 10 hours - so I'll probably be up the rest of the day & rely on some caffeine to keep me up through the night.  Gina's working tonight also, so I'll have someone to chat with.  See ya!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Beautiful Day

I'm just getting ready to head to work in about 10 minutes.  It is a beautiful day here in Florida - sunny, breezy, cool - just beautiful.  I hope it's like this during the week so I can get some sun & maybe even a little yardwork done. 

I worked last night - it wasn't bad.  Only one episode of chest pain (not mine) that lasted approx 5 min.  Her cardiac enzymes (2 sets) were both negative, so I don't believe it was heart related.  I had another gentleman that came in because his left hand had been numb & he was having a hard time moving his fingers.  While filling out the admitting assessment form, there is a question regarding "drug use" - as if anyone is actually going to tell me they do pot, cocaine, heroin, etc.  They all say "No, never" or "many many years ago."  I got the same response from this gentleman, but people - anytime you come in with stroke like symptoms, they are going to do a drug screen on you.  I won't say what his results were, but he was lying to me <sigh>.  By morning, he was able to move his hand/fingers & was feeling better.  We'll see how he's doing when I return tonight.  My other two patients were pretty manageable - another lady admitted with chest pain & a gentleman with a pneumothorax.  Both rested quite well through the night.  I'm hoping for another good night tonight. 

On a good note, Dale Jr. finally placed in the top 10 in today's race in Texas.  Go Dale, go Dale - win it next time!  #8

Peace, y'all!

 

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Amusing, yet true

A Graduate Nurse throws up when the patient does.
An experienced nurse calls housekeeping when a patient throws up.
  (I run in the opposite direction).

A Graduate Nurse wears so many pins on their name badge you can't read it.
An experienced nurse doesn't wear a name badge for liability reasons.  (I don't even have my last name on my badge, much less any pins!) 

A Graduate Nurse charts too much.
An experienced nurse doesn't chart enough. (I feel like I don't chart enough, but I probably chart too much.)

A Graduate Nurse loves to run to codes.
An experienced nurse makes graduate nurses run to codes. (Yep, I love running to codes, haven't participated in any yet...but I am a voyeur in these situations.)

A Graduate Nurse wants everyone to know they are a nurse.
An experienced nurse doesn't want anyone to know they are a nurse. (Yep, still proud to say "I'm a nurse.")

A Graduate Nurse keeps detailed notes on a pad.
An experienced nurse writes on the back of their hand, paper scraps, napkins, etc. (Napkins come in handy!)

A Graduate Nurse will spend all day trying to reorient a patient.
An experienced nurse will chart the patient is disoriented and restrain them. (Hmm, suppose I should reorient my patients, but I don't restrain them, well at least not too often.)

A Graduate Nurse can hear a beeping I-med at 50 yards.
An experienced nurse can't hear any alarms at any distance. (This is one of my pet peeves, I cannot stand to hear an IV pump beeping continuously.  It seems to be true though, the experienced nurses are unable to hear the annoying sound, but I can detect it even if the room is on the other side of the hall at the opposite end.)

A Graduate Nurse loves to hear abnormal heart and breath sounds.
An experienced nurse doesn't want to know about them unless the patient is symptomatic. (I don't like hearing themcause it usually means I need to do something about it!)

A Graduate Nurse spends 2 hours giving a patient a bath.
An experienced nurse lets the CNA give the patient a bath. (I've done my share of baths as a patient care tech, time to let the CNA's have their turn.)

A Graduate Nurse thinks people respect Nurses.
An experienced nurse knows everybody blames everything on the nurse. (I'm starting to see that the nurse does get blamed for everything, but I think we're still respected...at least I hope we are.)

A Graduate Nurse looks for blood on a bandage hoping they will get to change it.
An experienced nurse knows a little blood never hurt anybody. (Not me, I don't want to see any blood anywhere - cause once again, it usually means I need to do something about it.)

A Graduate Nurse looks for a chance "to work with the family."
An experienced nurse avoids the family.  (I'm not crazy about patient's families.  I understand their need to be involved, but they do create extra work/stress to the situation usually.  But I do understand, if my family member were in the hospital - I'd be one of those annoying family members wanting to know all the information possible.)

A Graduate Nurse expects meds and supplies to be delivered on time.
An experienced nurse expects them to never be delivered at all. (Yeah, I'm still a believer that meds should be delivered on time.  I try my best to accomodate.)

A Graduate Nurse will spend days bladder training an incontinent patient.
An experienced nurse will insert a Foley catheter. (The foley sounds much better to me!!!!!)

A Graduate Nurse always answers their phone.
An experienced nurse checks their caller ID before answering the phone.  (I only answer if I absolutely positively have to!)

A Graduate Nurse thinks psych patients are interesting.
An experienced nurse thinks psych patients are crazy. (I don't even want to think back to psych clinicals, but it's true - even if you aren't a psych nurse, you will be dealing with psych patients in the hospital.)

A Graduate Nurse carries reference books in their bag.
An experienced nurse carries magazines, lunch, and some "cough syrup" in their bag. (No reference books here.....magazines most definitely!)

A Graduate Nurse doesn't find this funny.
An experienced nurse does.  (I think it's very cute!)

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Inspiration

I came across this & I find it inspirational...

There have been situations in your life that you thought you would never get through. And yet, you did.

There have been challenges you faced that you thought you would never overcome. And yet, you did.

There have been losses you've suffered that you thought you would never be able to get beyond. And yet, you did.

For you are here today, stronger, wiser, more experienced and more knowledgeable as a result of it all. Though the road has had its rough spots, you've successfully made your way along it.

There will certainly be more rough spots ahead, and there may even be some particularly difficult ones right now. So it pays, every now and then, to look back and remember that even though you thought you wouldn't get through, you did.

And perhaps, if you think about it, you'll see that there's really never any reason to doubt yourself. For when life challenged you to make your way through, you did.

And now, even more importantly, you will.

-- Ralph Marston

Overwhelmed yet energized

Warning - this is going to be a long entry.  

I worked Sunday night - it was a challenging night.  I walked in to do an assessment on my first patient only to find the infection control doctor walking out & saying "The patient is unable to move anything on his left side, is this a new development?"  Ummm.....let me check, nothing was mentioned in report.  Do my research, it is a new development.  Called the admitting doctor, received some orders, one of which was to call for a neuro consult. The neuro doctor came in right away & saw the same stuff we were seeing....no movement on the left side.  The patient was responsive, A&O to his name & location, answered most questions appropriately.  Neuro doctor wants a CT scan of the brain.  We get that done & find that it is negative.  Hmmm...seems very strange that the patient is unable to move the left side of his body, but the neuro doc says all we can do right now is continue to monitor.  My other patients that night were for the most part stable.  I did receive a new admit with chest pain, but they gave her some nitro & lopressor in the ER & by the time she got to me, she was stable & ready to go to bed.   

Fastforward to tonight...my night was the most overwhelming I have experienced so far as a nurse...at least as far as patient conditions go.  Yet here I am nearly 12 hours later & feeling ok...not even one bit frustrated...probably still in shock...lol. 

I had 4 patients.  Two were stable...yay.  Two were not...boo.  My patient that was unable to move the left side of his body was now nearly unresponsive.....wouldn't say a word, just staring off into space.  The night before when I had him, he could answer questions & would speak a little.  Last night...nothing.  It was downright eery!  The  ex-wife was there as well as his daughter...which just made things more difficult.  I came into the room at change of shift & met the ex-wife, she was at his bedside holding his hand.  So I inform her the doctor ordered another CT scan of the brain (again) & the transporter was there to take him.  She starts crying....hysterically crying.  We tell her everything is fine, his vital signs are stable, the doctor just wants this procedure done to find out what is going on with him.  She calms down, we get him on the stretcher & the transporter tells her she can go with if she wants - bad idea - but she goes with.  While they are gone, the daughter comes walking towards the room...sees that his bed is empty & assumes he died & that we've already gotten rid of his body in the 20 minutes that she was gone (???).  So she comes running in, starts hysterically laughing mixed with a little bit of crying - it was the most bizarre thing I've ever seen.  She falls to the floor!  We get her to sit in a chair & relax, your dad is ok...just went for a procedure, they will be back soon, your mom went with him.  She sits in the chair, trying to breathe & finally relaxing & then goes for a walk.  Next thing I know, she is running down the hall towards me, yelling my name saying "Jenniferrrrrrrr, my mom just called & says they are taking my father to the OR for emergency surgery!!!!!!!!"  Huh??????  I said no, that can't be right, they would notify us if this were happening.  She's ready to freak out again & keeps repeating "Emergency surgery!!!"  Then her mom calls & says "no, it was a patient mix-up."  The (grrr) people down in x-ray mixed up their patients & were trying to take mine to surgery - just what the family members needed to see or hear.  An incident report was written up on that.

So we get him back to the room & he continues to be unresponsive.  Next thing I know, the ex-wife is hyperventilating & then drops to her knees & starts throwing up in the trash can.  Ugh!!!!!!  The daughter starts in with her hysterical laughing/crying episodes.  My preceptor comes in & we start assessing the patient together while other nurses & techs are helping the family members.  At the same time, my patient in the other bed is asking if he can have a cup of ice...as if nothing is going on around him...lol <sigh>.  My preceptor tells me I need to call the doctor, that this patient is getting worse.  So I call the neurologist - no call back.  Call him again - no call back.  Call his admitting doctor -he gives me a few orders & when I ask about possibly transferring him to ICU, he says no, they can't do anything more for him than you can on your floor.  Uhh...hello......I have 5 patients, in the ICU, they only have 1 or 2 patients to a nurse - he can be closely monitored there.  So he says to wait & see what the neurologist says.  Ok, fine. 

In the midst of this happening, my other unstable patient is complaining of chest pain radiating down her left arm.  So I go check on her......I know it's something serious.  My preceptor is gone somewhere, so I ask another nurse for help.  She gladly helps - I have to say, my co-workers are helpful when you ask for help.  So she is helping me with this patient, the charge nurse also starts helping.  My preceptor comes back & takes over that patient & tells me to focus on my unresponsive guy.  Ok, good...cause I really can't do 2 things at once with different patients.  The neurologist calls back, my call gets intercepted by another nurse who is asking him something non-important - he yells at her cause he thinks she's the one that called him "stat" over something non-important.  He hangs up on her. 

Great.......so I have to call his answering service again & now I'm worried he's in a bad mood & will yell at me too.  He calls right back, I talk to him about my unresponsive guy & this is the first time where I feel like I'm having an actual conversation with a doctor & not simply taking orders.  I feel like I just might finally know something...lol.  He's as wonderful as can be, not only gives me some medical orders - but explains why he's ordering it & he says the patient needs to go to ICU.  Ok, great!  That's what I was thinking too.  Told him "thank you very much" & he was just as nice back to me.  :)  I'm getting so much better at these doctor calls, aren't I?   

Now I need the patient's chart.  It's NOWHERE to be found.  We search everywhere.  My preceptor calls down to radiology where he had his CT scan done.  They basically tell her they don't know where it is & it's not their problem, then they hang up on her!!!!!!  The nursing supervisor was present when this happened (yay!) & she went down there to find it & to also write-up whoever it was that hung up on my preceptor.  They did have the chart down there.  I write up my orders, finish up my nursing notes, call report to the ICU nurse & take my patient over there along with the hysterical family members - who have calmed down a little because my preceptor sat down & talked to them - thank god I had her there to help.  We get my patient to ICU....he actually speaks a couple of words while there (figures!!!!!!).  I was saying to him "Can you hear me???"  He mumbled "Yep."  I said "Say something!"  He said "Something."  Lol....but that was it, non-responsive after that.  We thought for sure he was having a stroke - but the CT scan was negative...so who knows what is wrong with him.  I go over the orders with the ICU nurse who is not happy at all.....the orders weren't 100% correct, she knows I'm an orientee but wasn't giving me any breaks.  I wasn't the one that put the orders in, other nurses did & then handed it off to me to get to ICU right away....but since it is my patient, I was responsible for them.  I do understand that & in the future I am sure I will learn how to do things perfectly, but for now, I'm learning.  Some of these nurses act like they've never been the new nurse on the block. 

Soooooo....I get back to my floor & I'm not there 60 seconds when the charge nurse says "Jennifer, ER is on the phone to call report for your new patient."  What?????  It's now about 11 pm.....I have not sat down since taking report from the day nurse at 7 pm!!!  My other patients still need their evening medications.  I quickly administer those & I take report from the ER & my preceptor tells me she has handled everything with my other patient that was having chest pain...whew.  My new patient is also being admitted with chest pain.  We get her to her room around 11:30, do my physical assessment, get her paperwork in order, she's complaining of chest pain, rates it at a "6 or 7"...feels "heavy, aching."  Get her some sublingual nitro tablets...give a total of 3, 5 min apart, no change in her pain level - only now I've added to it because it is burning under her tongue because of the nitro.  Labs are drawn (cardiac enzymes to rule out a heart attack - these are her second set - first set CKMB was slightly elevated, troponin was 0.10 which is within normal limits).  I'm constantly checking the computer for results...keeps saying "pending."  My preceptor gets back from her break, calls the lab to ask where the results are (it's over an hour now, so much for "stat" labs) & they read them off to her over the phone & will put them in the computer shortly.  Her cardiac enzymes were sky high - the highest I have ever seen!!!!!  The lab person who received those results should have been on the phone to us immediately. I don't remember exactly what her CK was or the mass, but Troponin was now 4.06 or something like that.  Normal level is 0.0 to 0.49.  Needless to say, she's having an acute MI (heart attack) right now!!!!!!   

So another call is made to a doctor...a cardiologist this time - a doctor who has never even seen this patient.  He was to have a consult with her today.  Anyways, I read the lab results to him & even he is like "Wow."  He gives me some orders, among them......transfer pt to ICU.  So we go through the whole routine again.  This time it went a little smoother, but still......time consuming.  At the same time, the other ICU nurse that took my first patient is wanting to talk to my preceptor to complain about the orders or something.  We take the second patient to ICU, then I go back to my floor, my preceptor goes to calm down the ICU nurse who has no compassion for me being a new nurse. 

I'm not back on the floor more than 5 min when the charge nurse is once again......assigning me another new admit.  Ughhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!  It's now 3:30 am, I have had no breaks, have not really even sat down much or even done any charting.  Luckily my preceptor took the new admit so I could get caught up.  All the charge nurse cares about is filling up the beds because it makes her looks more efficient.....she doesn't care that I am over my head in paperwork, have barely had any time other than to quickly check on my remaining patients & all that stuff. 

The next admit is a patient complaining of chest pain & has a blood pressure of something like 86 over 48--------so unstable!  Thank god my preceptor took her.  I did manage to catch up with the paperwork & left on time.  My preceptor was saying she has never had a night like this one & that they happen so very rarely.  Figures it happened to me. I'm proud of myself though, I kept calm & cool.  There were a couple of moments where I just wanted to cry.....not because I was emotional, but just stressed & needed a release.  Other times I felt like screaming....lol.  I'm feeling good right now....tired, but good.   I am off until Saturday night....time to rest & recover. 

Only 4 days left with my preceptor (I think).  After last night, it's scary to think about being totally on my own, but it's also comforting to know that others will jump in & help when needed.  Although I know in the future my preceptor won't be so readily available if she has 5 of her own patients to care for.  Oh well, I guess this is how you learn the ropes, by getting hands on experience.  I'm not complaining one bit though!  :)

Friday, April 8, 2005

Update

It worked out - I have a new tenant!  He's a carpenter/contractor & is coming over tomorrow to measure for new carpeting & tile.  The deal in exchange for all the work he's going to put into it is 2 months rent free.  It would have cost a lot more than that for me to fix it up myself & I wouldn't even know where to begin.  He is hoping to have the carpet in & the walls painted so he can move him & his family in by the end of the week.  I still am in shock that this is working out as well as it is.  What a nice ending to a miserable early morning!  One less thing I have to take care of <whew>!