I ended up going to my parent's house earlier today. My mom & I did a little shopping for my vacation of a lifetime. Then we had dinner. I also talked to one of my brothers & he made me feel a little better. That I should be celebrating that I had almost 14 yrs with Jagger, that not many dogs live that long & that he died peacefully in my arms as opposed to being hit by a car or running away. I know all that stuff, but it still hurts to have him gone.
My brother also reminded me that if I miss having a dog around, I always have the option of getting another one. The thought has crossed my mind, but it wouldn't be anything I'd do until after my trip. I really have to think it over as my crazy work schedule with long shifts makes me think it would be unfair to any puppy or dog.
I've never been without a dog ever in my life. I usually had two or more dogs at a time. Whenever one would pass away, I'd at least have the comfort/companionship of the remaining dog at home. Then I'd feel bad that the remaining dog was sad & I'd get another dog to keep him/her company. As I said in an earlier post, I put my last dog to sleep 13 yrs ago, Jagger was only about 5 months old at that time. It's just been him & I for the last 13 yrs together...no other pets. So this is all new to me...not having anyone to take care of or greet me when I get home or having a quiet house. I'm adjusting.
I'm feeling a little better. The good memories are resurfacing & making me smile. I know he's in a better place. A friend of mine sent me something really touching & I do believe in it. I like to think that Jagger is up in heaven with my other dogs...running around & playing. Here's what my friend sent me...
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....